E.g. - get married (I didn't), build this or that business (I did) , build apps for this that the other (I didn't) , get into a regular prayer routine (Partially failed miserably in the second half).
Which is pretty much okay - I mean it is what focused people do. They ready, take aim and fire... and more often than not I have pulled off a huge percentage of these things I set out to do and then evaluate at the end of year and here we go again.
I want this year to be different... or rather I want to be different in this year
I WANT TO BE - I DON'T WANT TO DO
|Sunrise somewhere in Nairobi|
Now I realize the depths in those moments... many of which I don't get to experience twice because things change - landscapes change, people move or die...
I WANT TO BE DIFFERENT IN 2015
I want to be different in 2015... to not be scared of not achieving, to not be scared of financial Insecurity or physical insecurity - it is a reptile's life being scared... I will not be afraid (What will I be?)
|I will not be afraid - relax... I am alive|
|Looking at life from a higher perspective - no more struggling|
I want to be different in 2015... to not seek approval from others... getting affirmation... being liked... I will not be so pathetically human seeking attachment... I will not be selfish (what will I be?)
|Sunset on Lake Victoria - seeing the smallness of my humanity|
I WILL BE IN 2015
I will be a child of God - I will know I have nothing to fear in this life except fear itself... because fear will deny me the complete experience of life
I will be one with humanity - I will do and give things to contribute to humanity instead of taking things to me pleasure and contentment. We are one humanity.
I will Love - because love gives meaning to life. No more attachments... no more me... I...
I will Live in 2015